I want a man, who isn't afraid to show how he feels. A man who won't lie in the heat of the moment to get what he wants and in the long run can't keep up with the words he said and all my hopes and dreams shatter in just a split second! I want a man that would make me his one and only, no other girls matter, I'm all he sees, I'm all he wants, I'm all he could ever ask for and he doesn't make me know this by just telling me, I know it deep within my bones because his actions speak well enough.
I want a man that will understand me. A man that knows what make me tick! A man that knows those exact things that get me upset and wouldn't dare do them because he cannot bear to see even the slightest wrinkle in my forehead. I want a man whose smile is in mine, whose sadness is in mine.
This man doesn't pressure me to get physical with him. Not in the slightest way!! He listens when I talk. He holds me wen I'm hurt and knows just how to make me smile no matter where I am or what I am going through. He knows that when I scream at him and tell him to get away from me he won't go because he knows all I really need is on the other side of the door.
All he wants is my happiness and only then is he happy. I am his everything and he is my everything. And we couldn't be any more happier.
He wants the best for me. He is not jealous of my achievements. He is always there at every step of the way. Advicing me when its needed. He never makes me feel like I should be some place else. He never makes me have to tell him how lucky he is to have me among all the men. He knows this, he breathes this and he reminds me moment.
He is self-sufficient, he is independent. He is focused, he wants the best for me. I am his queen and he actually treats me as such! And I will always travel first class! I deserve nothing less! He is my protector! No one says bullshit about me and gets away with it! His friends know me. They also know he doesn't joke with me. He takes care of me when I'm ill. And he doesn't put his feelings above mine because he is secure, emotionally, mentally and financially. He can vouch for me wherever he goes. His trust for me is endearing. I wouldn't ever want to go against him. He knows what he wants in a woman! He isn't confused like lost sheep running helter-skelter. I am the woman of his dreams and he knows this won't last just for a while. He knows that if he goes away from this world and is asked to choose again, he wouldn't have to ask for any other woman. He has found home, his resting place.
I just want a man that won't break my heart.
I want.. I want..This man is an illusion, a distant dream, a fantasy. He doesn't exist and never will. :(
Straight from the heart. A woman unlucky in love...
You know I'm awesome, xoxo
Thursday, June 27, 2013
GIRL ON FIRE
She's like the wind! She walks into your life and you don't know what had hit you! You could try but you can never forget her name. This girl is on fire.
She is empowered, strong, non-conformist, intuitive and futuristic . She always follows her instincts because they have never failed her. Yet she is quite rational. This girl doesn't have to do what everyone else is doing to have self- fulfillment. She is not in anyway shallow! A girl with the fear of God in her. She is a homemaker yet an independent woman. A woman with drive and focus. She has an ambition, she has a dream. Any man who has her would be considered lucky.
She's patient she's kind and she's principled. She is the pride of her father and he shows her off to all his friends. She is beautiful beyond compare, she is well aware of it and yet doesn't let her world revolve around her personal appearance. A woman of class, she prides herself in her ability to help others with the little she has. Beauty is vain. It will all go away someday. What is left is the virtue your parents have instilled in her and all she has learned as she has disciplined herself.
When she talks, people listen. And when she walks into a room, she brings smiles to peoples faces. She always keeps her cool and is level-headed. Her silence speaks volumes. She is not a girl pining for attention, she's a woman who demands respect. She values this over everything. She is not bothered about what people say about her. She just gives herself to you like a transparent bag. "Take me or leave me" is her watch word. She would never sell out. A woman of strong character she is. She would never compromise because she's trying to impress anyone. She also isn't impressed by the vanity of the things of this world. After all, naked we come naked we go. If she wants something she goes for it. She sees everything as a means to an end. An opportunist in the real sense of things. She doesn't let anyone or anything stand in her way. No shortcuts in this girl's world. Hard work, prayer and determination are the means to achieving goals.
She has flaws. She's imperfect. But her perfections lies within her ability to come to terms with her imperfection. She could be the most stubborn person you've ever met! She is rebellious! Revolutionary! She could freak you out sometimes with her coldness. She is erratic (even bipolar) but she would never intentionally hurt anyone. She defies prejudice and stands up for the rights of the ones being discriminated. She can't stand injustice. Call her rebellious, unconventional or even crazy. But she would not give up her seat! Call her inappropriate and quirky. She's on fire.
Life has been tough on her. She has gone through storms, trials and tribulation, heartbreak. She has been pushed way past the point of breaking. But she refuses to let these things overcome her. She has been deceived, taken advantage of. She has reached the point of being ready to give up. But the fire inside. The drive to keep moving. Has kept her strong. The spirit of God in her doesn't allow her to be subdued by the tempest in this world. Of all the unfortunate things that have befallen her she chooses to move on and leave the past in the past.
She has been in love. It hurt. Oh so bad it did. But she believes in one thing- you never lose for loving. She is a winner, a champion in whatever she does. She is never scared to love again. She is brave beyond human understanding. And other girls cannot decipher what she's on about. She dances to another beat entirely. In fact she plays her own drum. A true role model she is. All the girls want to be like her. But they just can't be her. All the men desire her. She is for everyone and belongs to no one. She's just a lonely girl in this lonely world who hopes that one day she's going to achieve her goals of touching lives and find that someone who truly deserves her and accepts her, flaws and all.
She's just a girl but the fire that burns inside is everlasting. Do not let anyone douch that inner flame girls! Keep it burning. You know I'm awesome xoxo.
She is empowered, strong, non-conformist, intuitive and futuristic . She always follows her instincts because they have never failed her. Yet she is quite rational. This girl doesn't have to do what everyone else is doing to have self- fulfillment. She is not in anyway shallow! A girl with the fear of God in her. She is a homemaker yet an independent woman. A woman with drive and focus. She has an ambition, she has a dream. Any man who has her would be considered lucky.
She's patient she's kind and she's principled. She is the pride of her father and he shows her off to all his friends. She is beautiful beyond compare, she is well aware of it and yet doesn't let her world revolve around her personal appearance. A woman of class, she prides herself in her ability to help others with the little she has. Beauty is vain. It will all go away someday. What is left is the virtue your parents have instilled in her and all she has learned as she has disciplined herself.
When she talks, people listen. And when she walks into a room, she brings smiles to peoples faces. She always keeps her cool and is level-headed. Her silence speaks volumes. She is not a girl pining for attention, she's a woman who demands respect. She values this over everything. She is not bothered about what people say about her. She just gives herself to you like a transparent bag. "Take me or leave me" is her watch word. She would never sell out. A woman of strong character she is. She would never compromise because she's trying to impress anyone. She also isn't impressed by the vanity of the things of this world. After all, naked we come naked we go. If she wants something she goes for it. She sees everything as a means to an end. An opportunist in the real sense of things. She doesn't let anyone or anything stand in her way. No shortcuts in this girl's world. Hard work, prayer and determination are the means to achieving goals.
She has flaws. She's imperfect. But her perfections lies within her ability to come to terms with her imperfection. She could be the most stubborn person you've ever met! She is rebellious! Revolutionary! She could freak you out sometimes with her coldness. She is erratic (even bipolar) but she would never intentionally hurt anyone. She defies prejudice and stands up for the rights of the ones being discriminated. She can't stand injustice. Call her rebellious, unconventional or even crazy. But she would not give up her seat! Call her inappropriate and quirky. She's on fire.
Life has been tough on her. She has gone through storms, trials and tribulation, heartbreak. She has been pushed way past the point of breaking. But she refuses to let these things overcome her. She has been deceived, taken advantage of. She has reached the point of being ready to give up. But the fire inside. The drive to keep moving. Has kept her strong. The spirit of God in her doesn't allow her to be subdued by the tempest in this world. Of all the unfortunate things that have befallen her she chooses to move on and leave the past in the past.
She has been in love. It hurt. Oh so bad it did. But she believes in one thing- you never lose for loving. She is a winner, a champion in whatever she does. She is never scared to love again. She is brave beyond human understanding. And other girls cannot decipher what she's on about. She dances to another beat entirely. In fact she plays her own drum. A true role model she is. All the girls want to be like her. But they just can't be her. All the men desire her. She is for everyone and belongs to no one. She's just a lonely girl in this lonely world who hopes that one day she's going to achieve her goals of touching lives and find that someone who truly deserves her and accepts her, flaws and all.
She's just a girl but the fire that burns inside is everlasting. Do not let anyone douch that inner flame girls! Keep it burning. You know I'm awesome xoxo.
PIECES OF ME
So I'm lying in my bed 1am in d morning can't bring myself to sleep. A heavy heavy mind filled with thoughts that make me wanna explode! The question that's running through my head. Why why why? An innocent question has caused such unsettlement in my mind. My spirit is weak my soul is paralyzed. Why do we do the things we do?
Funny how I cant always answer that. Why am I at this point in my life. Why am I here? Its like I'm in a constant search of something and unknowingly, subconciously, I'm taking measures to get it. Most of which are erratic. Oh well, I'm the queen of the radical as an uranian. Just when I feel fulfilled something draws me back. This lack of satisfaction. This constant craving for MORE. Nothing is ever enough. There's a little voice deep within my mind whispering "what if what you're looking for is right in front of you" but my heart tells me otherwise. My heart is yearning.
I'm like a traveller, an explorer. My journey began at the prime of my youth (lol, I'm STILL at the prime of my youth) and I've still not stopped searching. Infact, I'm not even always aware of it. In the general sense of speaking I'm a picture of contentment and perfection. I am in all ramifications living a "life in the fab lane" so to speak. But I can't calm down I can't stop searching.
I've been through pain and disappointments that make me want to stop feeling anything. I just can't stop. I feel numb. I'm a blank page. I'm also scared that I may never find what I'm looking for or that I have found it and lost it or I am staring right at it and it doesn't even regard or recognise me. What if what I'm searching for doesn't exist!!
I turn to Christ for fulfilment and try to be steadfast and I suddenly feel safe and secure and know everything is working out for good just because He's alive. I wanna burst out in joy for the precious gift of the Holy Ghost. How dirty stinky me is brought to the level of a God by just One Man. Feels great and glorious!
But then this world is full of mystery. Mysteries I'm yet too explore. The laws of society keeps limiting, the devil keeps trying to trap me with guilt. I try to shake him off. I dnt wanna hear it. Lord deliver me! I don't wanna be any part of this! Why can't I just forget myself and become like the saints? Why this torture? This constant battle against my own flesh! At this point I feel like I'm drowning. I need to escape. I need answers. I need strength. Oh yes, we all do.
I don't know if its just me or if all my readers can relate to this... You know I'm awesome. Xoxo
Funny how I cant always answer that. Why am I at this point in my life. Why am I here? Its like I'm in a constant search of something and unknowingly, subconciously, I'm taking measures to get it. Most of which are erratic. Oh well, I'm the queen of the radical as an uranian. Just when I feel fulfilled something draws me back. This lack of satisfaction. This constant craving for MORE. Nothing is ever enough. There's a little voice deep within my mind whispering "what if what you're looking for is right in front of you" but my heart tells me otherwise. My heart is yearning.
I'm like a traveller, an explorer. My journey began at the prime of my youth (lol, I'm STILL at the prime of my youth) and I've still not stopped searching. Infact, I'm not even always aware of it. In the general sense of speaking I'm a picture of contentment and perfection. I am in all ramifications living a "life in the fab lane" so to speak. But I can't calm down I can't stop searching.
I've been through pain and disappointments that make me want to stop feeling anything. I just can't stop. I feel numb. I'm a blank page. I'm also scared that I may never find what I'm looking for or that I have found it and lost it or I am staring right at it and it doesn't even regard or recognise me. What if what I'm searching for doesn't exist!!
I turn to Christ for fulfilment and try to be steadfast and I suddenly feel safe and secure and know everything is working out for good just because He's alive. I wanna burst out in joy for the precious gift of the Holy Ghost. How dirty stinky me is brought to the level of a God by just One Man. Feels great and glorious!
But then this world is full of mystery. Mysteries I'm yet too explore. The laws of society keeps limiting, the devil keeps trying to trap me with guilt. I try to shake him off. I dnt wanna hear it. Lord deliver me! I don't wanna be any part of this! Why can't I just forget myself and become like the saints? Why this torture? This constant battle against my own flesh! At this point I feel like I'm drowning. I need to escape. I need answers. I need strength. Oh yes, we all do.
I don't know if its just me or if all my readers can relate to this... You know I'm awesome. Xoxo
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Destroyed In Love
"Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever?"
These words from Brandy's song are racing all over my head tonight. Its all about love. Why does it hurt so bad? Why is it so damn uncontrollable?
It is commonly said, "You can't help who you love". It is even more painful when you finally fall in love and can't be with the one you love. Have you ever been in a situation whereby you hope and wish with all your heart that you didn't have to feel this feeling they call love. And if you had your way, you would be as cold as ice. But hold up, "if you had your way"?? Then really, whose way is this thing really going? What is this force you cannot control that just picks someone who could be the end of you? It is the question I'm still pondering tonight. I heard somewhere, love is a ruthless game unless you play it good. I totally agree about the ruthless part. As for it being a game, a game is within your own control last I checked. Love is something we all can't control and it gets me every time.
It starts with a simple attraction. A spark. Something about that person is exciting to you but you can't put a finger on it. Your system turns upside down whenever you see the person. You conclude its a "crush". Then it happens! It doesn't simply end there. You get talking, you can't have enough of this person and the person seems equally keen. A little kiss and touch here and there. You're literarily going crazy! You jump up whenever that red light blinks on your blackberry, hoping its that special someone. You are mentally dancing "alingo" whenever the phone rings and you see that name flash across the screen of your phone. Its all roses and pearls. You make eachother laugh and fight over the most petty issues. Its so cute and your friends are wondering what's making you glow. You just want to keep talking about this particular person. That's all you want to talk about, that's all you want to think. of. You're all he also thinks of. You just can't get enough.
With the way this story is going, it does deserve an happy ending. But the problems set in when one person stops trying. Or for some reason, you both "can't be together". Oh how that hurts! You've sworn not to give your heart away. But here you are anyways. You're completely drowned. Now everything he does counts as something else. Things you could overlook with anyone becomes a big deal with this person. If he replies you in a particular manner while texting, you begin to feel bad or if he doesn't call you or doesn't text you as often as he used to. You try to talk sense into yourself and shake it off "He didn't come to this world cuz of you", "he has other things doing now". No matter how hard you try to convince yourself you know deep down, something is wrong. Somewhere in the midst of the blur of "love" you missed out on something.
You probably forgot that he is married or in a relationship which is more important to him than you can ever be. You probably forgot that you were just the girl he met at the club or on twitter. Someone you just have a chat with whenever you both are bored and you were not supposed to be anything more than friends with benefits.
Uh oh, sweetie, you must have bumped your head. Where did your brain go? What were you really thinking? Pause, you reflect, and wonder "was I even "thinking"? Yeah. It has got you! You caught the love bug. Last you checked it was "just a crush" but this crush isn't going away and its eating you up like a termite eats wood. You realize that while you where spending all this time obsessing over this person, you indeed bumped your head.
You knew deep down all along that this was not healthy. You tried to stop it. You ran but couldn't hide. It all happened anyways and there was absolutely nothing you could do about it. *sigh*. The one word answers, the less frequent calls, and texts and all the possible signals in the world that screams "Swerve"! Then you get the message. All you're left with is a pool of emotions you cannot control. You don't know what to do with these feelings and they are choking you by the day. You're about to burst. Destroyed in love..
The only question I can ask at this point is "Why"? Why *evuls*? Why didn't God just confine us to falling in love with the person you're supposed to be with. The world would be a less hurtful place to live in!
Moral of the story though: ðon't be foolish. Don't fall in love and don't even think about it. Lol
Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right?
Have you ever?"
These words from Brandy's song are racing all over my head tonight. Its all about love. Why does it hurt so bad? Why is it so damn uncontrollable?
It is commonly said, "You can't help who you love". It is even more painful when you finally fall in love and can't be with the one you love. Have you ever been in a situation whereby you hope and wish with all your heart that you didn't have to feel this feeling they call love. And if you had your way, you would be as cold as ice. But hold up, "if you had your way"?? Then really, whose way is this thing really going? What is this force you cannot control that just picks someone who could be the end of you? It is the question I'm still pondering tonight. I heard somewhere, love is a ruthless game unless you play it good. I totally agree about the ruthless part. As for it being a game, a game is within your own control last I checked. Love is something we all can't control and it gets me every time.
It starts with a simple attraction. A spark. Something about that person is exciting to you but you can't put a finger on it. Your system turns upside down whenever you see the person. You conclude its a "crush". Then it happens! It doesn't simply end there. You get talking, you can't have enough of this person and the person seems equally keen. A little kiss and touch here and there. You're literarily going crazy! You jump up whenever that red light blinks on your blackberry, hoping its that special someone. You are mentally dancing "alingo" whenever the phone rings and you see that name flash across the screen of your phone. Its all roses and pearls. You make eachother laugh and fight over the most petty issues. Its so cute and your friends are wondering what's making you glow. You just want to keep talking about this particular person. That's all you want to talk about, that's all you want to think. of. You're all he also thinks of. You just can't get enough.
With the way this story is going, it does deserve an happy ending. But the problems set in when one person stops trying. Or for some reason, you both "can't be together". Oh how that hurts! You've sworn not to give your heart away. But here you are anyways. You're completely drowned. Now everything he does counts as something else. Things you could overlook with anyone becomes a big deal with this person. If he replies you in a particular manner while texting, you begin to feel bad or if he doesn't call you or doesn't text you as often as he used to. You try to talk sense into yourself and shake it off "He didn't come to this world cuz of you", "he has other things doing now". No matter how hard you try to convince yourself you know deep down, something is wrong. Somewhere in the midst of the blur of "love" you missed out on something.
You probably forgot that he is married or in a relationship which is more important to him than you can ever be. You probably forgot that you were just the girl he met at the club or on twitter. Someone you just have a chat with whenever you both are bored and you were not supposed to be anything more than friends with benefits.
Uh oh, sweetie, you must have bumped your head. Where did your brain go? What were you really thinking? Pause, you reflect, and wonder "was I even "thinking"? Yeah. It has got you! You caught the love bug. Last you checked it was "just a crush" but this crush isn't going away and its eating you up like a termite eats wood. You realize that while you where spending all this time obsessing over this person, you indeed bumped your head.
You knew deep down all along that this was not healthy. You tried to stop it. You ran but couldn't hide. It all happened anyways and there was absolutely nothing you could do about it. *sigh*. The one word answers, the less frequent calls, and texts and all the possible signals in the world that screams "Swerve"! Then you get the message. All you're left with is a pool of emotions you cannot control. You don't know what to do with these feelings and they are choking you by the day. You're about to burst. Destroyed in love..
The only question I can ask at this point is "Why"? Why *evuls*? Why didn't God just confine us to falling in love with the person you're supposed to be with. The world would be a less hurtful place to live in!
Moral of the story though: ðon't be foolish. Don't fall in love and don't even think about it. Lol
Saturday, November 24, 2012
INSECURITY
So I was just tweeting from my official account, @honey_ricci (of course you all are free to follow the page) and i got an inspiration to write on this very pressing issue of insecurity. What triggered this? A simple tweet on my timeline about a girl that was obviously "wearing bum bum" in her avatar. this of course is not a new invention to me, neither is it new to any of the Lagos girl's reading this post and even some of the men! I am not here to talk about the infamous 'bum bum pad" that has raged the hostels of several female students today.That is barely the point! it is just a little node on this big tree called INSECURITY.
Living in Lagos and Nigeria as a whole has thought me the bitterness behind insecurity. I have learnt not to trust anything anyone is saying because they might just be saying it so they could look superior to you. The constant oppression and bullying Lagosians encounter everyday has a psychological effect. Many of us here need shrinks more than we know. It is said "Many are mad but few are roaming". Pathological liars are being born everyday owing to the need to "cover up" 'package" and other terms I cant even think of right now.
Our society today has made it almost impossible to stay real and true to oneself and "friends". Everyone is so full of lies and deceit these days. Everybody wants to belong. no one wants to be a "social outcast" but the real question here is - to what end? Even the Bible says' "What shall it profit a man to gain the world and lose his own soul". Everyone is selling out and the real people are getting extinct. If you don't fit into a certain stereotype you are suddenly pushed aside. You see people you call your friends pushing you aside in their quest for social status. They will say you are "stopping their shine". They wanna roll with the big boys and girls now. Ever girl wants to date a guy that has a car, that buys you brazillian hair, pops in the club. and the guys who cant afford to do that are going to crazy lengths to become like that. What with the new hype of them "wire wire" "Malay' boys and many more. Oppression is the constant order of the day. We put ourselves in bondage, shackled by our own insecurity some may call materialism and deceive ourselves that we are living the life. The life of "live fast and die young". Convincing ourselves that somehow these trinkets we gather and the image and the packaging will make us accepted somehow. WOAH! That's pretty sad. Tell me what is the difference between now and when we were being oppressed by the British!!
Beneath all these glitz and glam is a little voice on the inside saying "hope they like me". We shouldn't live to impress humans like ourselves! Please there is a need to change. I call myself a non-conformist because i'd rather have you hate me for exactly what i am than to like me for what i'm totally not! Why must you fix brazillian hair? Why must you do lace wig? (some even use their synthetic hair to make it). Why must you lie that you are in the club popping rosay when you are drinking palm-wine at the nearest "sepe" joint. If you are not doing these things who will come and hold you? I am not saying these things are bad and that if you have the resources to do them, you cant. But don't become a wanna-be without realizing it. Be the way you are and be proud of it. Tell yourself you are the best. Set goals for yourself and work towards it. Never ever say "I am not good enough" or 'I cant do it'. For parents reading this post work on your growing kids. build up their self esteem now! it is the best time too. If the parents of most of us have tried to help while we were growing up, maybe the world around us would be better.
Say no to oppression and modern day slavery. Be bold and stand up for yourself. its human to be insecure. But its also in your hands to decide how these insecurities affect our lives. You can turn these imperfections into perfect imperfections. Once you can do that no one can make you feel inferior. Don't forget that vanity upon vanity all is VANITY.
You know im awesome, xoxo.
Living in Lagos and Nigeria as a whole has thought me the bitterness behind insecurity. I have learnt not to trust anything anyone is saying because they might just be saying it so they could look superior to you. The constant oppression and bullying Lagosians encounter everyday has a psychological effect. Many of us here need shrinks more than we know. It is said "Many are mad but few are roaming". Pathological liars are being born everyday owing to the need to "cover up" 'package" and other terms I cant even think of right now.
Our society today has made it almost impossible to stay real and true to oneself and "friends". Everyone is so full of lies and deceit these days. Everybody wants to belong. no one wants to be a "social outcast" but the real question here is - to what end? Even the Bible says' "What shall it profit a man to gain the world and lose his own soul". Everyone is selling out and the real people are getting extinct. If you don't fit into a certain stereotype you are suddenly pushed aside. You see people you call your friends pushing you aside in their quest for social status. They will say you are "stopping their shine". They wanna roll with the big boys and girls now. Ever girl wants to date a guy that has a car, that buys you brazillian hair, pops in the club. and the guys who cant afford to do that are going to crazy lengths to become like that. What with the new hype of them "wire wire" "Malay' boys and many more. Oppression is the constant order of the day. We put ourselves in bondage, shackled by our own insecurity some may call materialism and deceive ourselves that we are living the life. The life of "live fast and die young". Convincing ourselves that somehow these trinkets we gather and the image and the packaging will make us accepted somehow. WOAH! That's pretty sad. Tell me what is the difference between now and when we were being oppressed by the British!!
Beneath all these glitz and glam is a little voice on the inside saying "hope they like me". We shouldn't live to impress humans like ourselves! Please there is a need to change. I call myself a non-conformist because i'd rather have you hate me for exactly what i am than to like me for what i'm totally not! Why must you fix brazillian hair? Why must you do lace wig? (some even use their synthetic hair to make it). Why must you lie that you are in the club popping rosay when you are drinking palm-wine at the nearest "sepe" joint. If you are not doing these things who will come and hold you? I am not saying these things are bad and that if you have the resources to do them, you cant. But don't become a wanna-be without realizing it. Be the way you are and be proud of it. Tell yourself you are the best. Set goals for yourself and work towards it. Never ever say "I am not good enough" or 'I cant do it'. For parents reading this post work on your growing kids. build up their self esteem now! it is the best time too. If the parents of most of us have tried to help while we were growing up, maybe the world around us would be better.
Say no to oppression and modern day slavery. Be bold and stand up for yourself. its human to be insecure. But its also in your hands to decide how these insecurities affect our lives. You can turn these imperfections into perfect imperfections. Once you can do that no one can make you feel inferior. Don't forget that vanity upon vanity all is VANITY.
You know im awesome, xoxo.
Sunday, July 8, 2012
WANNA-BES
Okay so today I wanna talk about the infamous 'wanna-bes' what makes them tick? What do they hope to gain at the end of a long series of social climbing? And what are they gonna do to get to the top??
We all know that we live in a world of oppression. In our society today, we are faced with pressures day in day out. As ladies its one kind of hair or make-up or designer bags and shoes. As guys and men, its the cars, the cruise, how much you pop in the club excetra excetra. It is left to us to chose whether to maintain our identity and ignore whatever anyone else is doing or to get carried away and want these worldly possessions at all costs! Wanna-bes Wanna-bes Wanna-bes!! Everywhere I go.I'm sick of it really. People should try to understand that the only thing you are best at it being yourself not anyone else! You can't successfully be the second version of someone else.
In my day to day activities I see lots of people giving themselves unnecessary headache just because they want to be the 'happening girl' or the 'big boy'. Carrying material things on their head like its the centre of the world. They can spend all day talking about other people. How big someone's house is how much one yahoo boy hammered and you can practically see the dollar sign glittering in their eyes as they speak! Like 'hello!! They are just people!! They want to be like those people they are so fascinated about for all the wrong reasons. You can't compare yourselves to others if you don't know what they do and can't do what they do. I don't get impressed by anyone easily because I really don't know what they all about. Don't know what they did to get what they have. Don't even believe what people say from their mouth these days. I just know only ME and can vouch for myself.
Being a wanna-be arises from a lot of reasons. It could be the need to be liked at all costs or the idea of being fed up with being 'invisible' for so long. Desperation is the word. Desperation to feel among, desperation to have money and so on. 'Famzing' various 'cool' people who are not even worth the stress. For Christ's sake you can even be better than those people! Everything these days is just packaging! If u put all your time and effort into idolizing someone and you find out they are not even all that what are you going to do? Hang yourself? Oh Silly me! Its on to the next one. That's the pathetic life of the wanna-be. Like a saprophyte eating into the lives of people because you can't survive on your own, because you have lost your identity. That's just the saddest thing!
Please if you happen to fall into this category of people change your ways and work on yourself. Or go for deliverance at the nearest pastor's office :). Can't be so hard for you! *lol* Well that's all for now! Thanks for reading and please drop in your comments. You know I'm awesome.. Xoxo
We all know that we live in a world of oppression. In our society today, we are faced with pressures day in day out. As ladies its one kind of hair or make-up or designer bags and shoes. As guys and men, its the cars, the cruise, how much you pop in the club excetra excetra. It is left to us to chose whether to maintain our identity and ignore whatever anyone else is doing or to get carried away and want these worldly possessions at all costs! Wanna-bes Wanna-bes Wanna-bes!! Everywhere I go.I'm sick of it really. People should try to understand that the only thing you are best at it being yourself not anyone else! You can't successfully be the second version of someone else.
In my day to day activities I see lots of people giving themselves unnecessary headache just because they want to be the 'happening girl' or the 'big boy'. Carrying material things on their head like its the centre of the world. They can spend all day talking about other people. How big someone's house is how much one yahoo boy hammered and you can practically see the dollar sign glittering in their eyes as they speak! Like 'hello!! They are just people!! They want to be like those people they are so fascinated about for all the wrong reasons. You can't compare yourselves to others if you don't know what they do and can't do what they do. I don't get impressed by anyone easily because I really don't know what they all about. Don't know what they did to get what they have. Don't even believe what people say from their mouth these days. I just know only ME and can vouch for myself.
Being a wanna-be arises from a lot of reasons. It could be the need to be liked at all costs or the idea of being fed up with being 'invisible' for so long. Desperation is the word. Desperation to feel among, desperation to have money and so on. 'Famzing' various 'cool' people who are not even worth the stress. For Christ's sake you can even be better than those people! Everything these days is just packaging! If u put all your time and effort into idolizing someone and you find out they are not even all that what are you going to do? Hang yourself? Oh Silly me! Its on to the next one. That's the pathetic life of the wanna-be. Like a saprophyte eating into the lives of people because you can't survive on your own, because you have lost your identity. That's just the saddest thing!
Please if you happen to fall into this category of people change your ways and work on yourself. Or go for deliverance at the nearest pastor's office :). Can't be so hard for you! *lol* Well that's all for now! Thanks for reading and please drop in your comments. You know I'm awesome.. Xoxo
Thursday, May 31, 2012
UNLUCkY IN LOVE
Have you ever wondered, 'why do people get into relationships?'Some to find love, others for social status, others for money, sex and some for marriage and procreation. From what I have gathered, its pretty much confusing. But I do know for sure that everyone start with the hope of finding love! That's one of humans' great desires. No matter how great or powerful or rich and famous, there is always this space that love needs to fill up. That's the basic thing. But somewhere along the way,individuals' priorities change.
Some stop believing in love due to personal experiences or stories heard, others hold on to the hope that love is gonna find them someday but get shattered hopes and dreams in return. Some people prefer to remain guarded for the fear of heartbreak, refusing to open up that soft part of them. I for one has yielded to the latter.
For people called the hopeless romantics and in otherwords, optimists in the world today,they are used as a free ground for a whole lot of arseholes and jerks to thread on. Because they won't stop believing in love and keep yielding themselves to their feelings. This jus gives room for heartbreak and pain as the world we live in today do not appreciate the notion of true love. You can hear the 'I love you too's, 'I'll do anything for you' 'you're my everything' but its all for the show. People would say anything to get what they want and you being so excited about having 'found love', would fall for all the sweet words and in the end, you find out that all you thought was perfect and true and magical comes crashing down in the twinkle of an eye! With just one sentence 'it's over' 'I can't do us anymore' 'I found someone else' the one thing you have put your all into becomes nullified. You even wonder if you missed something! Sad much!
Its even harder these days when you're the kind of so called 'ideal' girl or guy. You know, the kind that everyone wants. The dream guy or girl with beauty, brains, money and good nature. You never knows who wants you for the real thing or just for the hype of having you.. Like a trophy! I definitely have to deal with that everyday of my life now. Infact, I have made up my mind to expect the worst from every guy. Don't even have the 'ginger', the boost, to go into any relationship or abandon an existing one. You know the saying the devil you know is better than the angel you don't know and that the next guy you meet might be worse than the one you already have. I mean I have built up a conviction in my heart that all men will do the same thing. None is different from the other. The sad ugly truth we all have to live with.
Those of you that reason with me and have gone through the same phase understand what I mean. Its now a thing of 'what's the point' 'they will all mess up in the end'. Why should I bother my head pleasing one man or lady when in the end I will only be taken for granted, unappreciated or be hammered with more and more complaints. Its a simple thing people, 'If he can't handle my worst, he aint getting my best'. Only God deserves MY best! Dunno about y'all. I am very justified in this statement because in my short days on this earth I haven't seen any reason I should think otherwise! Its a free world! Drop in your comments, let's hear from your own perspective!
I speak to you as an independent woman 'UNLUCKY IN LOVE'. From the beautiful mind of yours truly. :). You know I'm awesome. Xoxo
Some stop believing in love due to personal experiences or stories heard, others hold on to the hope that love is gonna find them someday but get shattered hopes and dreams in return. Some people prefer to remain guarded for the fear of heartbreak, refusing to open up that soft part of them. I for one has yielded to the latter.
For people called the hopeless romantics and in otherwords, optimists in the world today,they are used as a free ground for a whole lot of arseholes and jerks to thread on. Because they won't stop believing in love and keep yielding themselves to their feelings. This jus gives room for heartbreak and pain as the world we live in today do not appreciate the notion of true love. You can hear the 'I love you too's, 'I'll do anything for you' 'you're my everything' but its all for the show. People would say anything to get what they want and you being so excited about having 'found love', would fall for all the sweet words and in the end, you find out that all you thought was perfect and true and magical comes crashing down in the twinkle of an eye! With just one sentence 'it's over' 'I can't do us anymore' 'I found someone else' the one thing you have put your all into becomes nullified. You even wonder if you missed something! Sad much!
Its even harder these days when you're the kind of so called 'ideal' girl or guy. You know, the kind that everyone wants. The dream guy or girl with beauty, brains, money and good nature. You never knows who wants you for the real thing or just for the hype of having you.. Like a trophy! I definitely have to deal with that everyday of my life now. Infact, I have made up my mind to expect the worst from every guy. Don't even have the 'ginger', the boost, to go into any relationship or abandon an existing one. You know the saying the devil you know is better than the angel you don't know and that the next guy you meet might be worse than the one you already have. I mean I have built up a conviction in my heart that all men will do the same thing. None is different from the other. The sad ugly truth we all have to live with.
Those of you that reason with me and have gone through the same phase understand what I mean. Its now a thing of 'what's the point' 'they will all mess up in the end'. Why should I bother my head pleasing one man or lady when in the end I will only be taken for granted, unappreciated or be hammered with more and more complaints. Its a simple thing people, 'If he can't handle my worst, he aint getting my best'. Only God deserves MY best! Dunno about y'all. I am very justified in this statement because in my short days on this earth I haven't seen any reason I should think otherwise! Its a free world! Drop in your comments, let's hear from your own perspective!
I speak to you as an independent woman 'UNLUCKY IN LOVE'. From the beautiful mind of yours truly. :). You know I'm awesome. Xoxo
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